Two and a half years later, we are going back to panama tomorrow. Panama. Where I first got to know him. Where we shared desserts every night. Where we first worked side by side. Where he first turned my head. That panama. Where do we stand? I don’t still know! All I know is this.
- I still love him
- he still enjoys my company and I his
- we still have long talks
- he has “a girl he talks to”
- he compares her to me
- he says she is “a mess”
- he has no idea if I am dating
- We laugh together a lot
- we act like a couple when we are together
- i miss him when we are apart
Recent moments include:
- teaching a class together where he demonstrates a skill by holding me from behind and his body touches mine and feels like magic
- doing dishes together side by side me washing, him rinsing – so domestic
- him introducing us as a team and calling us the yin and the yang
Sprinkle in between these moments my usual rage resulting in breaking up with a man I have no commitment with. How long can this go on? What will happen in panama? A lot of work, that is for sure, but I am staying an extra day to relax and recover, will he stay too? I will let you know in my next post